Published by Katherine Tegen Books on October 10th, 2017
Sasha Stone knows her place—first-chair clarinet, top of her class, and at the side of her oxford-wearing boyfriend. She’s worked her entire life to ensure that her path to Oberlin Conservatory as a star musician is perfectly paved.
But suddenly there’s a fork in the road, in the shape of Isaac Harver. Her body shifts toward him when he walks by, her skin misses his touch even though she’s never known it, and she relishes the smell of him—smoke, beer, and trouble—all the things she’s avoided to get where she is. Even worse, every time he’s near Sasha, her heart stops, literally. Why does he know her so well—too well—and she doesn’t know him at all?
Sasha discovers that her by-the-book life began by ending another’s: the twin sister she absorbed in the womb. But that doesn’t explain the gaps of missing time in her practice schedule or the memories she has of things she certainly never did with Isaac. As Sasha loses her much-cherished control, her life—and heart—become more entangled with Isaac. Armed with the knowledge that her heart might not be hers alone, Sasha must decide what she’s willing to do—and who she’s willing to hurt—to take it back.
Edgar Award–winning author Mindy McGinnis delivers a dark and gripping psychological thriller about a girl at war with herself, and what it really means to be good or bad.
I hate it so much when an author who has wowed me in the past fails to do it later on. It’s such a heartbreaking letdown. It just breaks my heart to have to give this book a negative review. I was so excited for this book, and since I’ve been on a contemporary kick these last few weeks, I decided to pick it up last week. I had recently read another book where the main character was similar to the main character in this book and I had enjoyed that book. So I was fully prepared to be treated to a glorious mind-fuck.
Well that didn’t happen.
Normally I don’t mind unlikeable characters and sometimes I see my teen self in them, but with Sasha Stone, I just could not find anything to like about her. She was a terrible friend to Brooke & Lily and a selfish girlfriend to poor Heath. Yeah, sure he might have been boring, and if that were the case, she should have dumped him & let him move on. Instead she clung to her claim of him for far too long, referring to him as her boyfriend until the book was nearly over. All the while, having sex with some other guy. That doesn’t even cover how crappy she was to her parents. Her parents who had already gone through a loss over a decade ago.
I was so bored by this book, but because it’s a McGinnis book, I kept reading, thinking it would improve. Not only did it not improve, but the storyline just got more insane as the book continues. Normally, I don’t mind that, but the sharp contrast from the boring first half to the batshit, out of the blue storyline that emerged in the second half was just too much for me.
I did enjoy all the medical/science-y stuff that was in the book, and the girls Sasha meets later in the book are really cool and I wish this book had been more about them & less about Sasha.
Final thoughts: Skip this book if you need storylines to actually make sense.